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Don't get me wrong: I have felt all store of those ways listed above. I have had all of those experiences. But that paints a very bleak picture of a very depressing life, and you all know that's store not the way I do things around here. I do have, however, an inner fat girl. She is the part of me that hates my body-- even my new, slimmer body. She is responsible for the times I look in the mirror and see unattractive bulges instead of womanly curves. She is the one doing store the constant compare-and-contrast. She makes me tired. Since the beginning of the year, I have been losing weight. I have gotten ever-closer to being the normal sized person I want to be, who doesn't have to struggle with these issues. But I also feel like I have betrayed my inner fat girl. I have betrayed her, and I am running away from her, because she makes me sad.
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